well, her dads a child molester so shes scared for her kid, hes 10 years old. & shes a hard workin mama shes got no regrets for what shes become. she let me in her house & let me cry on her shoulder. she said i dont ever get to take care of you no more & by the looks of things no one else will. just like me childhood hero im the best at what i do, but im a runner. if i dont like what i see then im off like a bumblebee in flight. i cant even stand to see my own face in the mirror. it hurts to know ill never get to see yer face again, although i see it every day in every word thats ever spoken to me. now im drinkin and im cussin and my fists are a'swingin at midnight. in the middle o' nowhere saying 'god just let me die just not so slowly' all i ever wanted was to be sane again. my mind and my body would just rot if i stayed. i did the best i could took all i could take. do you want to know? if i thought that you did id tell you